My hopes for this spot

I've really been missing you mom since you passed away on June 17, 2006. I find I miss picking up the phone and being able to talk to you the most. While I know we spoke many times a week, I didn't realize that you were my best girlfriend and the one I talked to. I have other friends but I don't call them and just chat. We all have such busy lives and I wouldn't call them to just talk about what happened that day like you would and like I did with you. What would seem boring to talk to them about was something interesting for us.......and we filled that role for each other. And now you are gone. I realized about two months after you passed that my support system consisted of you and Lynn. You were the one I called just to chat and I really miss that. So many times since you have gone away I've thought "I need to call mom" and then realized you won't be picking up on the other end of the line. I really miss you. I miss your friendship the most. It's helpful that you were also my mom and that you always had my best interest at heart......that there was no jealousy or envy that can happen with girlfriends. So I created this blog. It's the next best thing for me to tell you what I'm feeling, what life is like and can go through this process called grief while staying "in touch" with you. I miss you mom and I wish you were still here. This all happened to young for you and your vibrancy and friendship is missed, and I'm only one of many that feels that way, but I feel it so many times per day and more dramatically then most. I wish you were here so we could continue to experience life together. We could have fun just being with each other doing the most mundane things, like shopping or talking or watching TV, but we also had our travels and adventures together and I wish we had more. I love you mom, Suz